Yes. Relax. I’m pretty terrible :P
I came up with this when my Gray Area said something that touched me. “… in a room that was ours.”
In a room that was ours,
We’d have flowers and colorful things,
In a room that was ours,
Things would always be in a peaceful mess,
Only in a room that was ours.
My life is going in a good direction now. Much better than a few months ago, definitely.
My mom is doing a lot better and there are no signs of cancer anymore. I’m back at home with my parents and it’s good that I’m here because I make them very happy. They always tell me how I’m so full of life and so much fun to live with. Plus, compliments aside, I personally feel happy living with them. Too bad they’re away now and I won’t see them for at least 6 months.
On the front of better news, I have applied and been admitted to Northeastern Illinois University. It’s not one of the best schools, but neither is it bad. At all. In fact, it’s pretty good and credible. I’m in the process of registering but need to take a very simple test first.
Thanks to my Gray Area (a term coined and used by me for an unlabled, undefined, and unlimited partnership), I’ll get a cheap yet very nice bike to get to school by.
She, moreover, helps me better realize and utilize my potential and supports my decisions and gives me a lot of confidence and encouragement. She’s great :)
Last but not the least of my good news, I am done with my 2 year relationship that was dragging me down and destroying my life. Fortunately, now I’m free. The abuse will no longer go on and I will not fall into depression and self-hatred again. It’s good to rid your mind and soul of filth that tries to devour your character. You will lose all your definitions, morals, and personal values; along with your personality. You become a mindless pleaser.
That’s all for now. It’s delightful to post here again. It has a new feel to it somehow. I have a WordPress app on my Windows Phone, thus I can check comments and post directly from my phone :)
Goodnight, and good fortune everyone. 
I would never get coffee again.
With the $300 dollars that I throw away every month, I could do more creative things instead that would make my life better, versus the momentary gratification that doesn’t last me more than an hour.
If I could not spend that money, then I would:
buy 5 brand new Xbox 360 games every month.
buy 7 really nice bed sets and never need another for years and years to come.
save it up for four months and go on a really nice vacation.
go play pool for 6 hours every week of the month.
buy $70 to $80 worth of good groceries every week.
eat out and have a nice time watching a movie at the theater every weekend.
buy a brand new computer in 3 months.
get myself a new TV in 3 months.
save up for down payment of a new car.
not worry about not being able to pay the rent on time or freak out when a sudden expense comes around.
get new clothes every week.
I could do all the imaginables and more.
But I drink Starbucks coffee every day.
I wonder.
What if I could stop smoking too…
Here I am finally. I was forced encouraged to create a WordPress blog. But hey.. My own WordPress page! Woot woot! It’s not exactly the kind of thing you’d find, say, under some 8 year-old girl’s bed, with a pink cover and a big yellow glitter heart on the front *looks at Jorge*.
Anyway.
I don’t know how I want it to be yet. But I’m writing this post so it wouldn’t be completely empty for now.
Let’s stay in touch :)
